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08 December 2011 @ 09:48 pm


Card 1 (The Fool) : How you feel about yourself now  »

You feel discontent or uneasy and feel a need for a change in your life, a new direction, perhaps even an adventure. You might not know where you want to go, just that you don't want to stay where you are. It's a time for optimism and major decisions - unexpected influences could have a powerful effect on your decision making.
Ask yourself, is what you desire really the right thing for you?

The fool. The card says it all.
And the last question is almost the right question.

I'm desperate for a change. At the same time I'm lost, where to begin you know..
What I want and what I'm used to contradict themselves.
I'm glad I am surrounded with positive voices =D

Card 2 (Strength) : What you most want at this moment  »
The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is to find the strength and will power to see you through and achieve what you want. It is important to come from a place of love and tolerance though, and not aggression. Put your fears to rest and develop a positive attitude and you'll reap richer rewards.
I really want strength to say NO to some people.
I have the ideal person that I want to be but these people are directing me to be a person I no longer am.
I'm afraid of saying NO and hurt their feelings.
Last2 asyik moody and marah je keja..frustrated at myself and everyone.
Bad, bad.

Card 3 (The Moon) : Your fears  »
Lies and insecurity are likely to be prominent in your life at the moment, you are afraid of being deceived and feel that you are being misled. Trust your instincts and let them guide you away from those who may seem charming but are only out for their own gains. Your turbulent emotions are muddying the waters - step back and try to find clarity of mind, although this may seem difficult. The Moon does help to illuminate the way and don't worry, it will turn out alright in the end.
The exact situation of my relationship and how afraid I am to leave it yet holding on is worst than letting go. 
"Your turbulent emotions are muddying the waters" 

Card 4 (Wheel Of Fortune) : What is going for you  »
Call it fate or destiny but the run of good luck or good fortune you are experiencing or about to experience is mostly not of your doing - enjoy this time. If there seem to be a number of positive coincidences happening in your life this is known as synchronicity, go with the flow and trust it.
  Who agrees I am lucky ?
I have to admit I am and enjoying it so much.
Perfect momentarily distraction !!
I won more than 10 prizes just this year okayy
  I believe its hardwork though people call it luck ;p

Card 5 (The Devil) : What is going against you  »
It's like you're in a drug-induced haze - it feels great and always leaves you wanting more. This is addiction pure and simple, whether it's an obsessive sexual relationship, money deals that are too good to be true, materialism at any cost or recreational drugs. Take care - it won't lead to a happy ending.

Those who have fallen once or twice for any form of lust will understand how devilish this is.
Like it said - feels great,tempting but NO happy ending.
Right now, I'm almost lust-free and would like to stay that way =D

Card 6 (Judgement) : Outcome  »
A time for taking stock, an end to an era or phase of your life and brand new opportunities appearing. An opportunity will present itself that must not be ignored and it could have far reaching implications, changing your life for the better.You will enjoy success and enjoyment for past efforts, events will pick up a pace and the outcome will be quicker than expected.
I cant wait, I'm anticipating new changes. Working on it !
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
07 November 2011 @ 03:19 pm
day 22

My heart is breaking
I have nowhere to let my feelings known

My heart is breaking
That you will never know the consequences of your action
Instead of loving another love, I might end up manipulating myself to love
That I might build a home on it

My heart is breaking 
To know that we do love each other in yonder days
..and probably always will

My heart is breaking
To know that as much as you are capable of breaking me
I am just as capable as you are
That we will always be in pain

My heart is breaking
To realize logic has run out reasons to welcome you back
That this is the final goodbye

My heart is breaking
because the heart truly loves you......
Current Location: Malaysia, Kuala Lumpur
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: Bellefire - You Were Meant For Me
14 November 2009 @ 10:39 pm

I'm fucking upset I just want to scream and get sued by my neighbours
Sorry bestie, I half-screamed at you just now

This is what happened when you're having conflicts with your guy
You tend to let your ego takes THE TIME
Yes, the precious time to get Utada's tix
Thinking about it, I am so mad right now
Of course of course he didnt mean it
He really wanted to get 'em for me yada yada
But he took his time
It crushed me.

RIght now I can easily relate our rship problem to his failure of getting Utada's tix
Oh not a nice move but it does make sense anyway

This is soo Deja Vu
I was there but also wasnt there when Vanness Wu performed
I was there but also wasnt there when DBSK came
Now am I supposed to be there but nt really there when Utada performs?!

Now, tell me what should I do on 12th February - damn it, its supposed to be my bday gift
During winter, sex can be great but forget about sex please.
Current Mood: pissed offpissed off
13 November 2009 @ 03:17 am

The photographer's magic
changed my mind about the color
Love it!
and Lydia Hearst is one interesting model
She looks and is expensive but she prefers to be cheap
How's that
13 November 2009 @ 01:53 am
"chemistry.. either you got it or you dont" - Grey's Anatomy

I gotta fly over to his place
I want to check on ours
and decide about us right there
his absence made me confused of our chemistry together
is it just body chemistry that we had to meet everyday before - what about our souls?
are we soulmates ?

allow me to be confused here
because he's everything that I'm not
he's everything that I dont want  
I'm not being impossible here
you know how Yoochun is charming,stylish,cute and all but can you handle Yoochun-like greasiness ????
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Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: Khalil Fong - sorry
02 November 2009 @ 07:20 pm
I went back to reality and guess what? It sucks
And this sem is the lowest point of my student's life
Fell in love and now might be falling out of it
I want to come back to the spazzing world but I just dont know where to start..

there's news Utada might perform in London this Feb but now no news?
I hope its for real because I'm going there, and I'm going to spend my days (and birthday!) with him, and we're not even sure by that time we'd still be in love with each other or not.. conflicts right?

So how about you love?
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: Akanishi Jin - bandage
10 August 2009 @ 02:54 am
  1. following BOSS
  2. Reading The Consequences of Feelings by catchanorthstar
  3. watching Mr. BRAIN
  4. listening to old DBSK songs (anything before Secret Code and Mirotic)
  5. Wild Bunny
  6. stalking random blogs
  7. movies, dining, shopping 
  8. waiting for smut fics to appear :P
You judge. Boring. Interesting. Mediocre.

I feel fulfilled. Not quite happy though.
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Current Mood: blankblank
Current Music: DBSK - Hey girl
10 August 2009 @ 02:07 am
Know this ad?

I've been meaning to put pictures of Cole Mohr and Ash Stymest for weeks, but Karlie Kloss got the spot within a few days..
I dont understand.
She looks so normal, like any random girl I come across daily
owns a face like actress-who-is-barely-famous in Hollywood
I would understand if she's ugly. Ugly or unique looking but she's not
Soo plain-looking

However below amazes me..

She pulled off the ugly concept very well until it became gorgeous
Maybe she has what it takes to become ugly pretty by being a plain Jane.........
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Khalil Fong - Love song
26 July 2009 @ 01:55 am
I have a lot of things to say
Tons to say

Im just a bit lagging in doing so..

Dont mean to be rude but Big Bang, here's my message : "Go Home"

I have a crush on this photo secretly..Oh Prada..
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Current Location: room
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Khalil Fong - Love song
26 June 2009 @ 05:07 am

real one
go away



I need to post something long after this.
Like a one shot fanfic..
Im treating LJ like twitter and wth I dont even like twitter!
Current Location: room
Current Mood: sicksick